The hidden, box-shaped world of Travis Knight.

Have you ever felt like you're on the last page of a really good book, about to read that happy little ending just to find that some stupid little cunt has ripped that last page out? I have. Within days, I fell in love. It didn't and still doesn't feel like just any love that I have felt before. It feels so impossibly right. I know that I've made the biggest mistake in my life, I have no way to fix it, only to keep going. But I'm not sure how to do that, one day at a time just doesn't cut it for me.

I feel like I've just made the biggest decision of my life, in 6 years time, I'll either go through with it, or hopefully gain the best part of me that I've ever had the chance of knowing.

The worse part is, knowing what I do, and being absolutely powerless to change anything with that knowledge.

I love her and know I'm going to fight for her with as much as I can, but what happens when she hates me for fighting so hard?

Hi all.

Just letting you all of you know, this is my final entry here.

I have found a new place to blog, via my mobile, which is pretty easy for me this way.

If anyone wants to read the new blog, the address is www.teknoslasher.blogspot.com

I look forward to seeing you there. Bye for now.

Dear Journal,

It's been a little while since my last entry, but atleast I'm posting again.

Since we last spoke, I've changed quite a lot.

I no longer work at McDonalds, I work full time at a company called Sedl Agencies. My role there is as a salesperson. I sell hardware, packing supplies, safety equipment, house and automotive paint. I enjoy greatly mixing paints for customers; I'm looking forward to mixing my own soon and spraying it myself.

I've also bought my own car and gained my licence. My car is am '96 EF Ford. My father and I have greatly modified the car.
Short on that, not much else has really happened.

Looking forward to updating again soon.

Bye.

Alright, now I've found myself in a little bit of a (metaphoric) Pickle.

The other day, I was informed that my girlfriend and a dude she only met a few weeks ago were in my room with the door closed.

The two of them "Click" very well together and even get along "Famously".

I'm not entirely sure if its me simply being paranoid, or if its something that I should look into; but I believe that there may be something else going on that is being hidden.

They even went off for a walk back to his house for a little bit so that they could get his pants in which he was going to wear when he went clubbing (with her) later on that night.

Am I within my relationship's rights to ask her not to be alone with the dude in that sort of situation? Or should I simply hit the situation straight on the head and tell him to get the fuck lost?

The guy is stronger than me, but he isn't that experienced in fighting; plus, I'd be fighting for something I believe in.

It prettymuch makes me uncomfortable in my own house which, I personally believe shouldn't happen. Do I have the right to tell him to get the fuck out of my house even?

So many variables in this problem, what should I do?

[. 001. ] first name: Travis.
[ .002. ] middle name: James Alan.
[ .003. ] last name: Knight.
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Trav, Travie, TeknoSlasher (Net), Knightly, Knight and "Oh my Knight" (Work).
[ .005. ] gender: Male.
[ .006. ] birthday: April 15th.
[ .007. ] height: 6'0".
[ .008. ] hair color: Dark Brown with Blonde Streaks.
[ .009. ] eye color: Blue, but have been told that they’re hazel (When they’re clearly not).
[ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: I need to wear glasses, but can’t be “Arsed” enough to get them.
[ .011. ] do you have braces: No.
[ .012. ] is your hair long or short: Its somewhat short right now, but a little longish.
[ .013. ] where were you born: In Brisbane, which is in Queensland of Australia.
[ .014. ] current location: Toowoomba.
[ .015. ] zodiac sign: Aries.
[ .016. ] how many languages do you know: Just the one; English.
[ .017. ] what language do you want to learn: Italian, very romantic.
[ .018. ] bad habits: Falling in love far too easily/quickly.
[ .019. ] piercings you have: Eyebrow
[ .020. ] piercings you want: None
[ .021. ] tattoos you have: None, yet.
[ .023. ] today: I have to work =[.
[ .024. ] today's date: October 24th.
[ .025. ] the time: 2:35 pm.
[ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: Only about another 150+…
[ .027. ] mother's name: Karen.
[ .028. ] father's name: Alan-.ohn.
[ .029. ] brother's name: Sean
[ .030. ] sister's name: Angela.
[ .031. ] favorite aunt: I don’t talk to anyone in my family.
[ .032. ] favorite uncle: Obviously, as the above stated.
[ .033. ] favorite grandparent: Ditto.
[ .036. ] worst relative: Ditto.
[ .037. ] best relative: Ditto.
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: Nope.
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you? I highly doubt it; the main point is that I’m able to survive without them.
[ .040. ] do you have any pets None yet
[ .041. ] what are their names: -
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: -

S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: Nope.
[ .044. ] did you drop out: Nope.
[ .045. ] current gpa: No idea, but my OP was shamefully 16 out of 25.
[ .046. ] favorite grade: Year 12.
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: Year 8.
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Mrs Bailie – She actually explained how to do the work to us.
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Too many to list.
[ .050. ] favorite subject: Computer Studies – One of the only classes I never had to study for to get A’s
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: Modern History.
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: I always bought my lunch.
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: Track & Field and Soccer.
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: Nope.
[ .055. ] are/were you popular: To an extent, but I never went out of my way to make sure I was.
[ .056. ] favorite dance: I can’t dance; in fact, that’s one of my problems right now. I have to learn to dance so I can compete with another guy that’s interested in my girlfriend. I’m so lame.
[ .057. ] favorite memory: This last year.
[ .058. ] favorite memory you want to have: The ones I’m hopefully going to be making with my girlfriend.
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: Saturday night – I was drunk and yelled out “I have an announcement to make; I LOVE THIS GIRL!” and then picked my girlfriend up.
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: Probably the above.

F A V 0 R I T E S
[ .061. ] number: 15.
[ .062. ] letter: A.
[ .063. ] shoes: No idea.
[ .064. ] saying(s): Lets not and say we did.
[ .065. ] TV show: Simpsons.
[ .066. ] sport: Sprinting.
[ .067. ] vegetable: Brocelli.
[ .068. ] fruit: Pineapple.
[ .069. ] movie(s): Back to the Future.
[ .070. ] magazine: Zoo Weekly or FHM.
[ .071. ] actor: No idea.
[ .072. ] actress: Not my scene.
[ .073. ] candy: Sweet N’ Sour.
[ .074. ] gum: Extra.
[ .075. ] scent: Lyxn – Click.
[ .076. ] candy bar: Snickers.
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: Chocolate.
[ .078. ] color: Blue.
[ .079. ] season: Winter.
[ .080. ] holiday: Easter.
[ .081. ] band: PCD at this moment.
[ .082. ] singer: Sophie Ellis Bextor.
[ .083. ] group: No idea.
[ .084. ] rapper: None.
[ .085. ] type of music: Anything really.
[ .086. ] things in your room: A pile of mess.
[ .087. ] place to be: With my partner; Emma.
[ .089. ] tv channel: Feh.
[ .090. ] junk food: Pizza!
[ .091. ] overall food: Spaghetti.
[ .092. ] store: Target.
[ .093. ] hangout: McDonalds, oddly enough.
[ .094. ] fast food: McDonalds.
[ .095. ] restaurant: McDonalds!
[ .097. ] time of day: Evening, I’m noturnal.
[ .098. ] country: Australia.
[ .099. ] state: Queensland.
[ .100. ] boys name: Leon.
[ .101. ] girls name: Faye.
[ .102. ] mall: Grand Central.
[ .103. ] video game: Kingdom Hearts 2.
[ .104. ] shampoo: Tresemme.
[ .105. ] board game: Connect Four.
[ .106. ] computer game: Dungeon Siege.
[ .107. ] car: Corona.
[ .108. ] music video: ColdPlay – The Hardest Part.
[ .110. ] word: Moomoo.
[ .111. ] month: April.
[ .112. ] cartoon character: No idea.
[ .113. ] scary movie: Saw 2
[ .114. ] team: Feh?
[ .115. ] possession: Myself.

P R I V A T E L I F E

[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: Yes.
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: She’s skinning, so she can’t crush me. As a matter of fact, I feel like I’m the fat one of the relationship.
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: Apparently so when I’m drunk.
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: Yes.
[ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: 7 – 10.
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: Jeniwah Patricia Coombe.
[ .192. ] how many hearts have you broken: About 4.
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: About 6, but I’m thinking it is going to be 7 very soon.
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: Smile because its over; cry because it happened.
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: Extremely kind hearted, easy-going, amazingly beautiful and so much better than me; I don’t deserve her at all.
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: Yes, a few on my phone.
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: Its on my PHONE.
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: Yup.
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: Theres a few in my gallery.
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: Personality, but looks aswell; just not as much.
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: Yes.
[ .202. ] are you still friends: Yes.
[ .203. ] do you smoke: I do when I’m drunk.
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: Beer = Bad; other Alcohol = Good.
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: No.

W 0 U L D Y 0 U E V E R..

[ .215. ] bungee jump: Perhaps.
[ .216. ] sky dive: Perhaps.
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: Yup.
[ .218. ] scuba dive: One day.
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: Yup.
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: Nope.
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: Nope, I wish none of mine would do that to me either, but I am however worried that there is one friend I have no chance of competing with and that he is going to take Emma away from me.
[ .223. ] cross-dress: Nope.
[ .224. ] lie to the police: Perhaps.
[ .225. ] run from the police: Maybe.
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: Maybe.
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: One day, maybe.
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: Being a normal dancer is hard enough for me.
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: Nope.
[ .230. ] streak: There was the possibility of it happening last night, but never ended up that way.


H A V E Y 0 U E V E R

[ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: Yes, and I’m not sure its entirely the best thing to have done.
[ .260. ] been to michigan: Nope.
[ .263. ] skateboarded: Yes, but quickly came off.
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: Not with anyone else around.
[ .265. ] stolen anything: A heart or two?
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: Nope.
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: Yup.
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: Nope.
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: Nope.
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: Definitely.
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: A few times.
[ .275. ] been to a concert: Not yet.
[ .276. ] been to another country: Not yet.
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: My father; we don’t get along though.
[ .278. ] got pulled over: Nope.
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: Once; nothing major though.
[ .280. ] broke a law: Not yet.
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: Not enough to help them.
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: I’ve wanted to; but I don’t like causing pain on myself.
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: Nope.
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: Nah.
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: Nope.
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and ate it: All the time.

W H A T D I D Y 0 U DO

[ .297. ] last birthday: I had a fight with the girl I was with at the time.
[ .298. ] yesterday: Worked and went out to the Uni Club.
[ .299. ] Last weekend: Had way too much to drink and went wild.
[ .300. ] Christmas: No idea.
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: Uhh…
[ .302. ] new years: Slept.
[ .303. ] Halloween: We don’t celebrate it here.
[ .304. ] Easter: Had a little chocolate.
[ .305. ] valentine's day: Not much.

T H E L A S T

[ .306. ] thing you ate: A mint biscuit.
[ .307. ] thing you drank: Coke.
[ .308. ] thing you wore: Cargos and a white shirt.
[ .309. ] place you went: Uni Club
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: Eyebrow.
[ .311. ] person you saw: Bec, the girl I’m sharing the house with.
[ .314. ] person you talked to: Bec.
[ .315. ] song you heard: Never Say Never.

: N 0 W : .

[ .316. ] what are you eating: Nothing.
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: Nothing.
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: Clothes.
[ .319. ] any shoes on: Nope.
[ .320. ] hat: Nope.
[ .321. ] listening to: Never Say Never.
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: Nope.
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: A little.
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: I’m not a Vegetarian, but I don’t really like meat.
[ .325. ] do you like cows: That’s a big sheep@!$
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: When I’m pissed off. But generally I’m what I like to call a “Little Bitch”; meaning that I’m too much of a wuss and am desperately looking to change myself.
[ .327. ] are you artistic: Aren’t we all?
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: Nope.
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: Somewhat of one.
[ .330. ] can you ski: A little.
[ .331. ] are you british: Nope.
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: Nope, just get her “I’m not a girl…” song out of my head.
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: Nope, just ripped the head straight off.
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: Nope.
[ .336. ] do you think Disney creators were on acid when they made 'Alice in wonderland? Nope, that question sucked almost as much as this reply.
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: Probably, I wouldn’t be surprised if I had a low I.Q. somewhere in the 70s.
[. 339. ] are you naughty: No, but I plan on being that way later tonight.
[ .340. ] are you nice: I’m trying to get rid of that part of me.
[ .341. ] are you short: Nope, about average.
[.342. ] are you tall: Yup.
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: Not yet…
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: Nah.
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: Nope.
[ .346. ] are you evil: I have my own, little evil plans.
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: Nope.
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: Maybe…
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: I’m no longer a teenager. =[
[ .350. ] am i annoying you?: Nope.
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: Maybe.
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: Not originally.
[ .354. ] this is over, are you happy now: A little.

I have some very big and important news. I want to tell someone what it is, but that decision isn't yet up to me.

Lately, life has become a little harder than I'm mostly acquainted to. I have had to find another place to live at due to issues concerning my recent ex-partner, Katie.

Long story short, I broke up with her for reasons undisclosed, then I told her that I had begun dating another girl and then she had her mother contact her best friend who is the sister of the homeowner at the house that I was staying at.

Currently I am staying with a friend from work until I can find my own place to go. It has been incrediably hard in my life as of recent times. Everything is slowly getting better though.

I'm now with a girl called Leah. She is the singular ray of light that is shining in my life at the moment. Without her as constant within my life; I surely would have given up here in Toowoomba and left for something worse.

Work has been good to me, I earnt $438 last week and was taxed $57. I can't really complain about the amount of hours I receive, however I wish that they were more together than spread over each day of the week.

I guess I should just start being like how the people that have made it in life are; thinking positively may actually cause my life to set itself on track.

Sorry for this being such a short post. I just haven't really had the time to get on to do it more often. I am hopefully going to start again though.

Well, where oh where to start... This week has been quite the interesting one indeed.

It started off with me starting work at McDonalds in Toowoomba. Not the worst job I could get, not bad pay either. However, the hours suck.

I was told I'd get more hours than what I'm receiving. I actually have to work until midnight, which I'm not entirely fine with, but am willing to work for money.

The 2nd night there I was told by some 16 year old that I was late the night before. I was 20 minutes early than what the manager told me. Found out a few days later she, the manager, had told me the wrong hours and so that fucked me over.

I was so pissed at that.

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As for my new bankcard coming, it fucking won't be! It sucks so hard, their terms and conditions for pictures on cards (which I neglected to read) was that they don't allow "Artwork" on their cards.

Maybe I could tell them that it was a really good, one off photo taken of my "Girlfriend". Think that would fly?

Hopefully things will be better, monetarily, they shall be, but happiness wise, most like not. (I was wondering how long that awful run on sentence was going to "Run-on" for...)

I also have two interviews this week, one for a company called "2D Accessories", I'm totally clueless about what the company is thoug and good ol' Coles Myer. I'm actually looking forward to them both as I want to get a 2nd job and pick up some decent cash.

I also wanted to get my eyes retested because I muchfully want Glasses. I made the time and had them retested (after already being told that I did need glassed, but there wasn't a great need for them and therefore the recommendation was to not worry about them).

I was told that I definately needed glasses to improve my reading ability = greatness. The eye doctor was utterly surprised that the other one I went to told me there wasn't a great need for them.

I'm going to be buying two pairs. A business pair with transitional lenses and an arty pair with normal lenses.

Happy Tidings.


A - Available?: Not in the least. I'm happily taken by my glamorous partner, Katie.
A - Age: Recently 20.
A - Annoyance: Being ignored when I have something important to say.

B - Best Friends?: Katie, Karen, Shereen, Karl (Sexeh babe!), My other personalities.
B - Bar: Chocy.
B - Birthday?: April 15th.

C - Crush: I massively crush on my partner.
C - Car: Actually, a bike. I'm looking at buying a "Chopper" style bike and putting lights and an engine into it.
C - Cat: There was one, Postie. He was the coolest.

D - Dead Pets' Name: BeBop (TMNT)
D - Dad's Name: Alan-John.
D - Dog: I once had a dog called Fox, but he was given away.

E - Easiest person to talk to: Katie.
E - Eggs: Scrambled.
E - Email: teknoslasher@hotmail.com

F - Favorite color?: Blue.
F - Food: Pizza.
F - Foreign Slang: Beats me.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: I'd always prefer having Gummy Bears over Works. =\
G - God: Atheist.
G - Good Times: Whenever I'm with a friend/s.

H - Hair Color: Brown. I'm going to darken it to more of a contrasted brown.
H - Height: 6".
H - Happy: Whenever I'm with my friends.

I - Ice Cream: Rainbow, Cookies 'N Cream and Wildberry.
I - Instrument: MY COMPUTAH!
I - Idol: Me!

J - Jewellery: My leather watch. So yummy.
J - Job: McBitch. (McDonald's worker if you didn't catch)
J - Jokes: Sometimes.

K - Kids: None as of yet, although there were scares in a past relationship.
K - Karate: Didn't get that far in the lessons. =[
K - Kung Fu: Uhh...

L - Love: Aye, with Katie.
L - Longest Car Ride: 12 hours.
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: Neither.

M - Milk Flavor: Choc.
M - Mother's Name: Karen
M - Movie Last Watched: Mousehunt.

N - Number of Siblings: 1.5
N - Northern or Southern: We're not actually talking about my genitals now, are we?
N - Name: Travis (RL), TeknoSlasher (Online).

O - One Wish: Win lotto so I wouldn't have to work.
O - One Phobia?: Everyone dying and not dying with them.
O - Other Pop: Hmmm?

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Fucks me, thats their life. I'm living my own.
P - Part of your appearence you like best: Face, hair, eyes and smile. I don't mind my nose that much either.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: I don't judge people unless they piss me off.

Q - Quick or Slow?: Back to my genitals eh?
Q - Queer or Straight?: Straight.
Q - Queen or King?: Knight?

R - Reason to smile: Friends. People that care sincerely for me.
R - Reality TV Show: Simpsons.
R - Right or Left: Lefty.

S - Song Last Heard: "Feel the love" by some dude.
S - Season: Winter.
S - Series: FMA

T - Time you woke up: 7:20 am thanks to Katie.
T - Time Now: 1:52pm.
T - Time for bed: When I've had work, its been about 3 am. It sucks.

U - Unknown: Uhhuh...
U - Unicorns: The other other white meat.
U - You are?: Sore and tired.

V - Vegetable you hate: Brussel Sprouts. Why does everyone hate Brocolli when it tastes so yummeh?
V - Vegetable you love: Porn.
V - View on Politics: Aslong as someone nails John Howard (the PM, not the actor) all is good.

W- Worst Habit: Believing I can fly.
W- Where are you going to travel next: To the shopping centre and then to work.
W- What's up?: This is like the third reference to my genitals.

X - X-Ray: Not yet.
X - X-Rated: My life.
X - XYZ: I always confuse the order of the last few letters, other than Z ofcourse.

Y - Year you were born: 1986.
Y - Year it is now?: 2006.
Y - Yellow: Not my color!

Z - Zoo Animal: Panda.
Z - Zodiac: Aries.
Z - Zoolander?: Confusing movie.

Well, I'm back from my holiday time. Can't say it was entirely fun either. Spent my birthday with my girlfriend. It was fun enough. Then it was Easter, can't say it was the best Easter yet, but I was able to spend it with the one I love so in a way, it was one of the better ones.

For the Admin job I applied for, I ended up being 1 out of 15 that were asked to come in for an interview (and that was out of the 200 people that applied). The interview itself went really, really well.

Unfortunately though, they wanted someone much more qualified than myself. To be honest, I was really looking forward to that job as it was $14.50 an hour. Would've been great.

It doesn't really matter though as (I'm not sure if I posted about this or not yet) McDonalds called me in for an interview with the First Assistant of the store two days after the Admin interview. I ended up going to that and received a phone call later that day asking for me to come in for another interview with the Store Manager the following Monday.

I went to that interview and I got the job! I had to go in last Wednesday for Orientation, which was funny as because the store manager Charles was making jokes about the training video and saying things like "If anyone ever comes into this store and points a gun my way, I'll be the first running out of there".

I start tomorrow though and will be working back area and working the closing shifts Monday to Friday with the added bonus being able to be called in at any time as I haven't anything else that I'd have to put priority over. The good part though is that I had to find out the exact payrate for Centerlink reasons. I was thinking I would've been on like $12ish an hour, but I found out that I will be one $15.68 for the first 15 weeks (3 Months) with that rising to about $17ish afterwards.

I'm not sure how I'm going to handle the late hours as I'll be working until 11pm and 12am constantly throughout the week. That shall be interesting.

Hope you all have been well. Take care for now.

Turns out that the interview was a "Phone Interview". They were testing me on my voice aswell as asking me various questions that I was to answer.

I wasn't nervous until the lady told me at the end that OVER TWO HUNDRED FUCKING PEOPLE APPLIED FOR THE JOB! Back to normalness now. We finished up the phone interview and she told me that she'd give me a call later in the day as a "Heads-Up" as to whether or not they want me to follow the phone interview with a "Face-to-Face Interview".

About 3 or so more hours after that, I received a call asking me. Jennifer Nielson was asking twhich time would suit me best to come in for my interview tomorrow. I told her 9Am. Katie and myself then went out to the shops so I could buy some new clothing suited for the interview.

I ended up spending just short of $100 on a great pair of Pants, Shoes, a Black Tie and a White Shirt. It should go pretty well with regards to how I look.

Wish me luck. I'm going to need it.